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Living in Jungles [13 Feb 2008|03:21am]
So it's 3:00am.


My anxiety/panic attacks are back. I can't smoke a joint without gettin one.

"Just stop smokin pot".



HA. I mean, yeah I'm going to have to if it keeps happenin but fuck man....really? No pot?


School is bullshit.

Ummm.

Ah fuck it.
I'm all in

If Dogs Could Read [15 Jan 2008|12:37am]
I still remember when I brought you home.
You peed on the floor
but no one blamed you
since you were just a pup.

You barked at the paper mache pig
I brought home from first grade.
That was your first time.
You barked a lot after that.

You would never sleep
at the foot of the bed,
so I'd always have to fight you
for pillow space.

And you always loved it
when someone rubbed your belly.
So much so that you wouldn't
let them stop.

(I wish I did it more often.)

Then last night
I kissed you on your head,
said "You'll always be my pup",
and went to sleep,
somehow knowing that it
would be the last time I could say that to you.

But you'll always be my pup.
I'm all in

Float like a cannonball [08 Dec 2007|10:09pm]
WORD!

Wanna hear something funny? I totally forgot I had an LJ.


Ok, last week of school is killin me. 50 hours of work on 3 days? No sweat.

Neeeeeed a new job.

Other than that, we be chillin. Music's comin' back. Met someone sweet as hell. Good times, good times.

Alright, gonna go burn a doob.
I'm all in

Dude, that's crucial [27 Oct 2007|01:10am]
Fuck, no LJ for awhile eh? That's raw power.

Life's been weird recently. Some shit's gone down over the last while and I don't even know what to make of it.  I don't think I know how to handle it, either.

The good times come and go, they say. And when they go they seem to take their sweet time away from ya.

Get me out of this town.
I'm all in

[02 Sep 2007|11:21pm]
I have to say.
I'm not enjoying what I'm turning into.
I'm all in

HOLLA [29 Aug 2007|01:19am]
I'm all in

[24 Aug 2007|11:03pm]
I need out of this town.
I'm all in

Cheers, darlin. I'll just hang around and eat from a can. [22 Aug 2007|11:04pm]
So with the click of a button.
The flip of a phone.


It all comes to a grinding hault.




Thanks for the good times, darlin'.
I'm all in

[22 Aug 2007|09:38pm]
I'm not going to lie.

I miss the way it used to be.
I'm all in

[15 Aug 2007|09:35pm]
When most people see their dad, they see Superman. A rock. A role model. This invincible man that you think will be immortal.

Then he gets older, and starts to deteriorate. Body starts breaking down.

He should be taking care of himself, but he's not. But it's nothing, because he's Superman. You've seen this guy drink like a tank, smoke two packs of cigarettes, and still manage to carry 50 pounds of shingles at a time onto the roof and be fine.

And then you see him in the hospital bed. Trying to get that oxygen in. A tube in his nose and a holister monitor attached to his chest. He cracks his usual jokes, and you think "He's ok", but then you notice that gasp for air. The tired, worn down look in his eye.

-------

I've never really had a traditional father/son relationship with my dad. I was always a little jealous of The Simpsons, or the Taylors, or the Cosbys. They had families. Mine isn't like that.

Dad could leave for an entire month to Italy and I wouldn't give it another thought. Probably because I knew he was coming back.

Last night they got him to the hospital. He couldn't breathe. He was sweaty. He was nauseous.

A valve in his heart totally stopped working. He needs a bypass within the next couple of weeks.

He's so fragile now. So broken.

He's almost gone. It's too soon. He hasn't even passed down any fatherly advice yet. Not on women or life or anything.

God dammit dad, we've wasted so much time.
2 Went busto|I'm all in

[14 Aug 2007|01:04am]
A quick update, cause I need to blow off some steam.

God damn school is stressful. Last week left, though. I can't fucking wait.

I'm somehow broke again. God dammit. I need to quit smoking, that's where all the money goes.

One more shot, September 3rd.

Can't wait for second semester.

So fucking tired these days. Work school work school work school school. I've done run out of my mind.

No sleep for me tonight. No siree Bob.

We need to get our shit together. Fast.

Back to work.
1 Went busto|I'm all in

[30 Jul 2007|10:13pm]
ugh.

Fuck it all to hell.
I'm all in

[27 Jun 2007|09:21pm]
So my parents are gone for two weeks. The break will be nice.

School is going ok. I just hope it helps get me somewhere in life.

Ugh. I don't even know why I update this thing anymore.
2 Went busto|I'm all in

One liners are the shit. [07 Jun 2007|10:41pm]
We could fit seas in the distance between us,
but I guess we'll need a place to swim
when this is over.
1 Went busto|I'm all in

[06 Jun 2007|05:59pm]
I'm a horrible person.

Enough said.
I'm all in

Did someone say update? No eh? Well, I did, so fuck you. [30 May 2007|12:49am]
Point form is where it's at.

-It's been a year now, and it's been amazing. I love you to death.

-Man I love school. I know that sounds pretty gay, but actually doing something productive with my time is really kind of satisfying.

-I wish I could write some songs, but I know I can't force it.

-Damien Rice is my new religion.
I'm all in

[07 May 2007|10:13pm]
Bahhhhh!

So here we go, school tomorrow.

It's kind of exciting in a sense. But then again, I keep thinking back to highschool. The same, daunting routine every day. Of course I'm sure this will probably be different in a lot of ways, but it's still routine. Hell, everything is a routine.

I guess I just didn't have enough time to mentally prepare for this shit. I found out I got accepted like, what, three, maybe four weeks ago or something?

Ah, well, here we go.
I'm all in

LyKe OMFGZ IM lYke FINALlY UPDATING! [03 May 2007|11:29pm]
On second thought, nevermind. I don't feel like it right now.
I'm all in

[11 Apr 2007|11:28pm]
So uh, yeah.

I got accepted into Digital Media Arts at Seneca.




Bitchin'.
2 Went busto|I'm all in

[11 Apr 2007|12:09am]
I'm a jerk.

I'm sorry <3
1 Went busto|I'm all in

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